Have you ever felt that crushing feeling? The feeling you're been suffocated? The knot in your stomach, the sudden sweats, the lightheadeness, the dry mouth, the struggle to swallow, the panic? The fight or flight kicks in, and you just want to run home and get in bed? Shut the curtains, lock the door? Hide … Continue reading Anxiety, Me & A Baby
A lot of my blogs, well nearly all my blogs are about Junior. I thought it was about time I blogged about Alfie Bear and a new journey we about to take...... When Alfie Bear entered the world, he did so extremely quickly. The Midwife told me I was only 4cm and to stop been … Continue reading Alfie Bears Story…..
Sorry we've not blogged in a while. Life has certainly been hectic and has got in the way of my outlet. 4 years of fighting. 4 years of saying I cannot Parent my child properly. 4 years of complete chaos. 4 years of my child hitting me, throwing things at me and yelling abuse. 10 … Continue reading The Diagnosis
I am the Mum you see out and about. The Mum who looks young. The Mum who has three children. The Mum who looks like she has no control over her boys. The Boys who you may hear before you see, the boys who cant keep still. The boys who talk at a high volume. … Continue reading I am the Mum….
Hearing them words, even when you think you are expecting them, knock the wind out of you. So many feelings. Elated, a proffesional sees what i see, im not going crazy. Im not a bad Mum after all. We are finally going to get some answers. An officially diagnosis. We will get help. Sad, because … Continue reading “Your Son definatly has a disorder”
Thursday the 29th September started off as any other day. The usual morning. Tantrums, attitude then breakfast club at school. Nothing was unusual. I went to do my car theory test and passed, i was beyond happy and phoned to tell everyone the news. I went home, made my lunch then sat down to eat. Then … Continue reading The First Seizure
Yesterday we visited Energi Trampoline Centre in York. I did briefly mention this in my last Blog post. I did mention the hellish Coach journey. The actual centre was well worth it though. We went to the Autism Friendly Session. When we arrived the lighting had been turned off, as had the music and the … Continue reading Energise York
I have tried to take a step back from blogging, and social media. I have come to the conclusion that i need to blog and spend time on social media. This is my outlet. My support system. I need social media as much as i need a cup of coffee in the morning. I never … Continue reading Adulting
This is our reality. Junior got angry. I couldn't explain to him what was going to happen throughout the day while I was at work. He destroyed the trampoline. Juniors speciality as you might want to call it, is destroying things. I honestly don't think at the time it's always intentional. He regrets … Continue reading Our Reality
I often sit and wonder, will my life contain any consistency? Junior and Alfie crave consistancy, but Junior is so unpredictable. He can go from 1 to 100 in 0.1 seconds. I can't always see a trigger. Am I blind? Is there a trigger? I'm mentally exausted. It's as if I get sucked into a … Continue reading Consistency & progress