Hearing them words, even when you think you are expecting them, knock the wind out of you.
So many feelings.
Elated, a proffesional sees what i see, im not going crazy. Im not a bad Mum after all. We are finally going to get some answers. An officially diagnosis. We will get help.
Sad, because what does the future hold? Junior is upset with me. This appointment was the first time, ive spoken openly in front of him.
Confused, we have always been told that Junior more than likely has ADHD and Asperger. The paediatrition isnt sure, although he thinks there may be some ASD there. Junior doesnt tick every box! I was only just coming to terms with ADHD and Aspergers. Now we are back to square one. Comfused, what will happen next?
Everything is coming all at once. So many tests. Millions of repetitive questions on family history. So many unanswered questions, are they trying to find blame? Point fingers? Trying to figure out if im just a bad parent? Theres too many appointments. I feel trapped in a whirlwind.
I can only imagine how Junior might be feeling. All i can do is answer his million and one questions.
I have never felt so nervous in my life, we are awaiting so many answers. We have so many questions.
I have to figure out how to explain it all to Junior.
First things first though, we will hopefully know by the beginning of November if Junior has Epilepsy or not.
This is one long journey.
We can finally see a light. Im not sure if im ready for the answers yet though…..