Something I have always struggled with. I was the fat kid. The late bloomer. Now I eat like a horse but remain skinny, “you’re so lucky” people always tell me. Shame i never feel lucky. I hate the fact I’m skinny, I’m a size 8, I have tiny boobs, I just look gangly, awkward and skinny! My skin is so pale, I don’t tan. “I’d kill for your figure” people often tell me, why is it we are never happy with what we have? Will I ever be comftable and happy?
its always the bad comments, back from when I was a teenager that have always stuck in my head. Cruel comments from imbeciles. Why is it never the positive comments that stick in my head?
We all got the chance to be filmed for an advert. Great stuff you might think, such a great opportunity. To be able to go to a water park all day for free! I on the other hand, can’t think of anything worse. We are going, I’ve asked to be edited out though. Swim wear shopping is a absolute nightwear. The only thing I could find that I was comfortable in ironically is a bikini. A very super padded bikini, swim suits and tankinis just didn’t fit right, I must have a long body! I’m still not sure how I will feel stepping out in said bikini, maybe wrapping a towel round myself might help! Or a very large bottle of wine or Vodka!
I’m determined to take a picture in my bikini, stand proud, stretch marks on my bum and back of legs and all! Flash that skinniness, pale white skin and be proud! Women all need to boost each other stand tall and be proud! We need to complement each other, embrace each other’s differences and respect each other.
People always ask why I tell my Cubs constantly they are “beautiful” and “you look perfect today” this is because I want my Cubs to be body proud, confident and embrace their flaws. Porchia already tells people she is the best looking person, she loves to dress different and loves to stand out. As she’s only 7, I hope she maintains this confidence. I don’t care about people’s views, I will continue to tell my Cubs daily how amazing they are ✌🏻️ & ❤️